Firstly, so stressed bout SYF :/

I feel so pressurized! The whole school is depending on the band and CO to sustain the SAA Award.

What if we can't get that Gold?

What if we can't even touch that Silver?

However, after today's band practice, finally I can hear the band coming together and I felt a tint of hope!

I hope the band will continue to improve till the day of SYF!

I know will!

Hwaiting band! 4 more days! We can do it! :)

Now that that's out of my mind..

There's one more thing bothering me;

Im confused. So confused.

I wanna get closer but I don't think I can?

Maybe its just me? Is it me?

I thought we can be something more, got carried away with my own selfish wants.

But why do you treat me like that? Doing things that are so contradicting.

Are you trying to tell me something?

I want to make you happy, make you smile, I don't want to see you cry.

You've kept your distance from me once before, and I've forgotten bout you.

Then you came back, treating me exactly the way I wanted you to.

And you do all this things, things that are so sweet and make me feel wanted.

Maybe you don't feel the same way after all. I doubt you do.

Someone once told me, to treasure someone you love and don't ruin it.

So if this is how you want it to go then I'll let it be.

You can't be mine, but still I can have you around.

I just want to see you happy, I never want to see your tears again.

Though, it'll be nice if you wake up and think of me once in a while .